Rewind back to Tuesday, it was awful. I'm sorry to be so debbie downer about it...but really, it was stinkin awful. I slept horribly on Monday night, Maddux woke up 3 times, and before I knew it the happy melody on my cell phone went off telling me it was 6:15 and to wake up! Through A LOT of tears I managed to get ready and it was time to nurse my baby before my dreaded walk out the door for a day at work. I cried the entire time I fed him, gave him a huge hug goodbye, and handed him to my mother in law. Ugh...I cried, and cried, and cried. Cried on my way to work and I cried at work. I finally got home, and cried. Put him to bed, and cried. The tears didn't stop.
I tried to get a good nights sleep on Tuesday night however failed miserably. Laying in bed I stared at the video monitor just thanking Jesus for my perfect son and asking Him to tell me the winning lottery numbers(then I wouldn't have to work!). Eventually I fell asleep, Maddux woke up 4 times, and that lovely ringtone woke me up again before I felt even slightly refreshed. I just prayed to Jesus to help me through the day....and He did. Because of all of the people praying for me. It went a little better. There weren't as many tears and I got a little more work done. I literally stopped and said thank you to Jesus for helping the day go better. Perhaps it was because I knew I was going shopping and out to dinner when I got home, not sure. But either way, I survived. I LOVED walking through the door and seeing my smiley boy - he is the absolute best.
A big thank you to my mother in law for all of her help and knowing what makes me smile. I loved getting text message updates and pictures throughout the day (even though I usually cried when I saw them).
Every passing day this will get easier, I know it will. I have all of my faith in Jesus to make this work. Mom's do it every day...and a lot of momma's have more than 1 baby at home that they leave! I know I can do this. I'm just thankful the first couple of days are over....I can't wait to spend my weekend with him :)
Here is a picture my mother in law sent me....looks like a happy baby to me :)
I'm so sorry! Those first couple of days are rough...wondering how your baby is doing, wondering what they're doing, etc. I always felt like I was the only one who knew what Cameron really needed and I worried like crazy about him. When I went back to work Dave was home with Cameron for the next 6 weeks, which was awesome, but it's still so hard to leave your baby!! If I figure out the winning lotto numbers, I'll split the winnings with you and then we can both stay home :)
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